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목요일, 5월 25, 2006
hate fyp
Listening to: Jung Ii Young [Gido], [Reason]
Feeling: Exhausted
Thinking: Need i say what..

Angel said i seemed exceptionally calm today. This despite the fact that less than an hour ago, i was rejected by my first prof. Ok, i know most pple will just ask me to give it a second try. Afterall, there are so many profs out there, surely there will some good Samaritan who would be so kind and unassuming so as to 'adopt' me n angel. Well, i din say i was dismissing the idea. It was just that what CKL said kinda struck a chord in me.

For one, i dun have urops. Secondly, i din come from a poly. Third, i have near zero lab experience. In conclusion, i wouldnt choose a lab idiot like myself if i was the prof. Period.

Should i give it a try den? Frankly, i dun have that much confidence. I hate lab work, i loathe the thought of having to go back lab everyday, i detest having to dissect mice, i cant stand microscopic work, i dread the final presentation n i have less den 1% interest in research. Woah. I think i will be super impressed with myself if i do go ahead with it in the end. Applause please..

Aiya i dunno lah. Trust me, i have been trying to make up my mind since the previous semester and still it has come to naught. I even went as far as to pin my hopes on somebody k. Silly, i know but lets just say it was an added bonus. But now, there is simply no single determining factor that can really make me steel my nerves n heart to go for honours.

Should i toss a coin, pluck flower petals, do a tarot reading n leave it all to fate?

I want a job that allows me to use my korean n jap. Does that sound related to life sciences in any way? Cos i see no connection..

But honours really sounds so much better to me. Save me the crap about a rose is still a rose no matter what its called..cos i dun think mr william shakespeare will wake from his grave n give me a hint on my decision here.

Im not being superficial. Its the world that is harsh out there. No cert, no money. Duh.

I miss the 2 songs..i think it was at least 3 or 4 years since autumn in my heart came out.


또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:41 PM